On Red/White Martyrdom

A reflection by Mother Maria-Michael Newe, OSB

Watercolor of the stream running through the Abbey property

I was reading a little bit about the history of relics, and discovered that in the first centuries after Christ’s life, they would build altars over the places where martyrs were killed for the Christian faith.  It is from that practice that we get the tradition of placing relics in the altars of Catholic churches when they are being constructed.  It is good to remember those who have gone before us and laid down their lives for Christ; those martyrdoms are what our Church is built on.  And it is good to remember that there are many unknown martyrs, who Christ knows so well.

I think especially of the white martyrs – the monastics.  We are called to be martyrs, and give ourselves up for the love of Christ.  We embody in a particular way the Gospel passage where Jesus’ relatives think He is “out of his mind” (cf. Mark 3:21).  Isn’t that what some people think about martyrs?  “Why are you dying for that?!”  Similarly, many people wonder about people who choose to live the monastic life: “Why are you doing that?!”  There is the red martyrdom, where blood is shed, and only God can give the grace for someone to have the courage for that.  Only God can give the grace for someone to embrace white martyrdom, too.  To live so closely to each other in community, serving each other even when there are difficulties and personality clashes, denying our self-will, following a schedule every day – these are all little martyrdoms that our world does not understand.  The world may think we are a little crazy, but thank the Lord!  Our ways are meant to be different than the world’s.

Really, every person is called to a type of martyrdom.  Marriage is a type of martyrdom.  Any vocation can be a martyrdom if lived well, because every vocation is meant to bring us to holiness, to bring us closer to Christ, to bring us to imitate Him Who gave up His life for the love of others.  Being faithful to whatever God calls us to is the important thing, and that is one thing that is very mysterious to our culture: fidelity.  Thank the Lord if people call you a little crazy, because they called Jesus a little crazy, too.  

Their action resembles the snow which, covering the heights, is melted by the warm rays of the sun, and descends in life-giving streams to fertilise the valleys and plains.

Dom Columba Marmion, OSB, Sponsa Verbi

Stepping Out

A reflection by Mother Maria-Michael Newe, OSB

We all know the story of Christ calling St. Peter out to walk on water.   When the apostles saw Jesus walking on the sea toward them, Peter said, “Lord, if it is you, command me to come to you on the water” (Matt. 14:28).   Christ tells him to “come,” so he steps out of the boat onto the water, but then he begins to sink and cries out.   This episode shows how evil tries to make us doubt.  That is one of the tools that evil tries to use against us – to doubt our faith, to doubt God’s love for us – and that is not from God. 

When Jesus stretches out his hand to catch Peter from downing and says, “O you of little faith, why did you doubt?” (Matt. 14:31), I don’t think He was rebuking Peter in a harsh way, or criticizing Peter for messing up again.  I think Jesus was simply saying, “What made you think I wasn’t calling you forth?  Don’t depend on yourself, but keep your eyes on Me, and follow through with confidence.  You can trust Me.”

There is a point when we should actually doubt ourselves, and that is if we haven’t prayed.  But if we have prayed first, and we feel confident about receiving direction from the Lord, then we should continue with confidence, and not let anything make us turn to the left or to the right.  It is for us to put our trust in God, and not fear, and never take our eyes off Him.  And if ever we begin to doubt, we should immediately call upon Him, like St. Peter did, and He will take care.

Our Sister Maria of Jesus, OSB, stepping out in faith and love, professed her solemn monastic vows on February 10!  Adding to the already glorious occasion of the Solemnity of Saint Scholastica, Sister Maria’s profession day was a truly blessed and joyous one, and we were happy that so many of her loved ones were able to join us for the celebration. Click here to read an article from the Denver Catholic about Sister Maria’s Solemn Profession.

All photos courtesy of André Escaleira, Jr. / Denver Catholic


Lenten Retreat Registration

Life’s journey can be full of distractions and diversions. Come to a day of recollection to find the meaning of Lenten observance and restore your vision of Christ for Easter.

Sister Maria Josepha, OSB

The Abbey of St. Walburga will be hosting two Lenten retreat days:
March 10 and March 29 from 9:30 a.m. – 3:00 p.m.

Two conferences will be given by one of the nuns on the topic of “Returning to Christ”.

Participants are welcome to join the nuns for midday prayers (the Divine Office).

A light lunch will be provided, or you are welcome to bring your own food (refrigerators and microwaves will be available).

The cost is $35 per person.

Registration is required. Please email our Guest Mistress at aswretreats@gmail.com
or call (970) 472-0612 to make a reservation.


A 2023 Resolution: Kindness

A reflection for the New Year by Mother Maria-Michael Newe, OSB

In 1 Corinthians 2:10, St. Paul says, “Brothers and sisters: The Spirit scrutinizes everything, even the depths of God.”  You know what he doesn’t say?  He doesn’t say that the Spirit criticizes; he doesn’t say that the Spirit murmurs.  He just says that the Spirit scrutinizes.

What’s the difference?  To scrutinize means to examine or inspect closely.  You really, really look hard at it.  To criticize actually means to indicate the faults of someone or something in a disapproving way.  That’s criticizing, and a murmur is a soft, indistinct sound by a person or a group speaking quietly at a distance.

When there’s something in you that starts criticizing everything about yourself, I think you need to turn it off and not listen to it.  There’s a time when we can critique ourselves, which means to look and be able to see a balance of good and bad.  But criticizing yourself – to speak so negatively – I don’t think that’s what God wants for us.

We need to pay attention to these things because usually what you do to yourself, you will do to others.  When you’re really hard on yourself, guess what?  You won’t notice when you’re hard on someone else.  And you don’t even mean it, but it’s just your way of thinking that’s come out.  

Then, in 1 Corinthians 4:5 St. Paul says, “He will bring to light what is hidden in darkness, and will manifest the motives of our hearts.”  But the more wonderful thing is that he goes on to add, “And then everyone will receive praise from God.”  He’s actually anticipating praise!  What a way to live!  Do you live like that?  When we have that way of living, anticipating good, it changes how we hear and see things.  Instead of seeing black, we see that the dawn is coming; instead of seeing just the negative, we give the positive the first place.

In your desire to achieve great holiness, it’s in making those little changes.  It’s the little things that make a lifetime.  Think of that today: the little voice with which you speak to yourself.  How is it?  Know, however you’re speaking to yourself, everyone else will become aware of it.  So don’t judge yourself or others too harshly.  You too must know that you have a good intent.  You too must know that, deep within you, you really mean well, and so does your neighbor.

Be kind to yourself, and you’ll be kind to others.


Photos from our chapel this Christmas season


…Give his people knowledge of salvation

through the forgiveness of their sins,

because of the loving kindness of our God

by which the daybreak from on high will visit us

to shine on those who sit in darkness and death’s shadow,

to guide our feet into the path of peace.

Luke 1:77-79

Advent: He Is Coming!

A reflection by Mother Maria-Michael Newe, OSB

One of the first readings the Church gives us during Advent is from the book of Revelation: “‘These words are trustworthy and true, and the Lord, the God of prophetic spirits, sent his angel to show his servants what must happen soon.’ ‘Behold, I am coming soon.’” (Rev. 22:6-7).  And that’s Advent.  He is coming soon.  Either we will see Him when He comes in the clouds, or we will see Him when we die and He comes to us, but one way or another we will see Him!  Am I ready?  Am I ready to see Him?  I think that we should have great joy when we think about this, not because we are confident in ourselves, but because we are confident in Him.  We should put great confidence in Him alone. 

Then we will have a great sense of joy about His coming, and we will strive to live for Christ purposefully at every moment, so that when He comes we are ready.  Part of that means being present to our prayer very purposefully, being present to each other very purposefully, giving a good example very purposefully.  Take the time to notice one another.  Don’t be too busy to notice those who are closest to you – those you whom you may take for granted.  Take the time to encourage one another.  Now is the time.  Now is the real time of joyful conversion.  Don’t wait, even an hour.  Begin.  Let each moment be a new beginning.  And then how bright would this world be – how bright! 

Mother Maria-Michael praying in the Chapel this Advent with our postulants Clare and Caitlin

I also want to point out that in one of the special collects (prayers) that the Church has during Advent, we implore the Lord that “when He comes and knocks, He may find us watchful in prayer and exultant in His praise.”  He comes and knocks in a special way during this season, and it is for us to ask ourselves, “How does God knock on my soul?  Is my soul attentive?  What are the deepest desires of my soul?”  The season of Advent is the season of silence, so that you can be aware of what is going on in your soul, not only the negative things, but also the joyful things.  What do you do throughout the day that makes Christ say, “I’m so happy I knocked on your door!”?  The silence of Advent is a joyful silence, kept so that we can hear His footsteps when He comes, so that we can hear His voice.  It’s a happy waiting, like a child at Christmas waiting for Santa Claus to make noise on the roof.  It’s that sense of waiting in expectation, of asking: “When is it going to happen?”  You don’t want to miss it.  That’s the joyful silence of this season. 

And if anyone feels like a lost sheep this Advent, just remember the importance of crying out to the Good Shepherd to be found.  Why would someone not cry out?  Shame?  Pride?  Self-reliance?  But the Lord hears the cry of the poor, and He wants to find you and be found by you this Advent.  So remember to cry out to Him, and let yourself be found!


Shake the Dust Off

A reflection by Mother Maria-Michael Newe, OSB

“Whatever place does not welcome you or listen to you, leave there and shake the dust off your feet in testimony against them.”

Mark 6:11

I have to laugh when I imagine Jesus teaching His followers that they don’t have to fight people who don’t agree with them – they can just shake the dust from themselves (c.f. Mark 6:11).  Not everything that sticks to you is mud.  Most of the time it’s just dust.  And you have to know how to discern that.  Don’t see everything as big heavy weights.  It’s as if Jesus asks us, “They’ve been mean to you?  Shake the dust off!  Why worry about it?”  What a nice way to handle it.  Sometimes we have to physically do something to shake off the dust; when something is really painful or hurtful, if we don’t physically do something it can run around in our heads.  But a way to stop it is to physically do something.

I think hearing and understanding Jesus’ words tells us a little bit about how Jesus Himself had to handle things.  How He took things, so that it wasn’t so heavy for Him.  He didn’t let it become heavy.  It was a choice: He could be upset, mad, and let it run around; or He could just shake off the dust, turn around and go to the Father.  You don’t have to do it noticeably all the time; you can go into the inner corner of your heart and shake off the dust.  But I would suggest that you find something to do so that you don’t carry around the dust of the world on your shoulders.  Otherwise it just all collects.

One of the most helpful ways to shake the dust off is to turn to the Scriptures.  Through the Scriptures the Holy Spirit speaks loudly.  That’s so often how things are answered. 

Cherish the Scriptures.  Put love into reading them.  Pray them.  This should cause our hearts to love more.  It should cause us to want to do more.  It should teach us how to love more.  True prayer will make us love others more.  It won’t make us separate.  Although as nuns we may appear separated because we’re cloistered, for us, praying with the Scriptures makes us love more in a different way, in the sense of bringing people before the Lord in prayer, caring about their cares.  True prayer should bring us even more together.  It is a happiness, a joy, to be united to all those you love in the Spirit.  Let your prayer bring you to that place.  It should really root us together in that way, and then it won’t be a surprise in Heaven when we’re together, too.


Fall Features

Our Chapel Window Tinting Project

This fall, we tinted the upper windows of our chapel to solve the dilemma of having very direct sunlight hit our faces when we are trying to pray the Divine Office.  It was a three-day ordeal, involving moving our liturgies to the conference room, fitting a JLG lift through doorways it almost couldn’t, and a constant process of building and re-building scaffolding, but it was all worth it, because at last, “By day the sun shall not smite you, nor the moon in the night” (Psalm 121:6).

Annual Community Retreat

On October 9-15, we had Father Jeff Loseke, Ed.D., S.T.L. (currently serving as Pastor of St. Charles Borromeo Parish in the Diocese of Omaha, Nebraska) direct our annual community retreat.  His daily conferences were on the topic of healing, and were a great blessing to us. 

Click here to read more about our retreat.

Bringing in the Fall Harvest

How wonderful to compare the before and after pictures of our garden this season!

The Changing of the Leaves

Let the heavens be glad and the earth rejoice;
let the sea and what fills it resound;
let the plains be joyful and all that is in them.
Then let all the trees of the forest rejoice
before the LORD who comes,
who comes to govern the earth,
To govern the world with justice
and the peoples with faithfulness.

Psalm 96:11-13

2023 Calendars for Sale

This year’s calendar features photos of our Sisters performing daily monastic duties.  The calendar also gives the days of the Church’s liturgical days and seasons, together with days commemorated by the Order of St. Benedict, as they are observed at our Abbey. 

***We are now sold out of 2023 Calendars; thank you to everyone who purchased one!

Padre Pio’s Example

“You ought to ask the Lord for just one thing: to love Him.”

PADRE PIO
“Joy, with peace, is the sister of charity. Serve the Lord with laughter.”

A reflection by Mother Maria-Michael Newe, OSB

St. Padre Pio is a favorite of many; you cannot but love him.  His whole life was one of suffering, yet he was known to have a great sense of humor.  He also had a righteous temper!  Padre Pio knew what sin was, he knew exactly how it separated people from God, and he took offense at it.

The example of Padre Pio reminds me of what we read in the book of Haggai.  Haggai 1:7 says: “Consider your ways/Reflect on your experience.”  If we are serious about our lives, we will do just that.  Monastic tradition dictates that we reflect on our lives particularly twice a day: at noon and in the evening at Compline. 

“God’s spirit is a spirit of peace, and even when we have serious faults, he grants us a tranquil, humbled, confident pain which depends entirely on his mercy.”

PADRE PIO

We reflect on our day for the purpose of conversion.  It’s not to take into account everybody else’s faults; it’s to account for our own reactions.  I’m responsible for my reactions.  Yes, people can push my buttons: they can be nasty, they can do all kinds of things, but that doesn’t mean that I have to react badly.  The reason we are to consider our ways is so that we can change them.  Beware of going through life saying “it’s everybody else’s fault.”

We also play a part in how we are to our [brothers and] sisters.  Don’t push people’s buttons.  If you know something hurts them, be aware of it.  Go the extra mile to be kind in that area.  Be aware of the weaknesses of one another.  What we can do to help one another, we’re responsible for doing.

“Consider your ways” (Haggai 1:7).  People are saying “Oh no… no-no… it’s not the time for that.  It’s not the time to build the house within” (cf. Haggai 1:2).  That’s what the world says, but God says it is the time.  How are we supposed to do it?  Read again in Haggai, “Go up into the hill country; bring timber, that I may be pleased with it, and that I may be glorified, says the Lord” (Haggai 1:8).  Bring the Cross.  Carry It.  Follow Him.  

Remember Who Christ is in your life.  Keep Him before you daily.  Every moment.  Seek His Face every single moment. 

The Cross of Believing
I will give up my idols of silver and gold
So that my hands may be free to embrace the bronze
Serpent, mounted on the pole,
That is Christ the Lord,
Crucified for the unworthy.
And I will carry this cross wherever I go —
This burden, both sweet and light,
Of believing that this God-man has loved
And given himself up for me,
Satisfying the Divine Justice with his boundless Mercy.
Life can never be the same.

Anonymous Nun

Sister Maria-Rose’s First Profession

On September 14, 2022, the Feast of the Exaltation of the Holy Cross, our Sister Mary made her First Profession of Monastic Vows during the Eucharistic Celebration, receiving the name Sister Maria-Rose, and taking Our Lady of Guadalupe as her Patroness. It was a beautiful ceremony, and unique because our Sister Assunta also renewed her simple vows for the final time before making her Solemn Profession next year.

We adore you,
Lord Jesus Christ,
here, and in all your churches
throughout the whole world,
and we bless you,
for by your holy cross you
have redeemed the world.

Saint Francis of Assisi